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Mood: Om*Ohm=uneasy
Listening to: Basement Jaxx - Home (ft. Michelle Ndgeocello)
Watching: Rear Window

To all the Douchebunnies and Twatwaffles who haven't missed me... well what can I say. And for those of you who have I apologize for my extended time away from dA. It seems like I go in and out of phases where I am on the comp and then I feel like I need to get off. Well I guess I'm somewhere in an inbetween stage right now but I figured 5 months was more than enough time between journal entries. For those of you who don't know my camera and laptop were stolen from my car in the middle of the day while I was at work in May. Yes I realize its my own dumbass fault for leaving them in my car however whats done is done and in all honesty why the feck should we have to worry about that. People have no respect for others it seems like sometimes. I've finally been able to replace my laptop but I lost all the photos that I had taken in the 8 months which I had been blessed enough to have my camera short of the ones I had taken the time to load on here. I think I have a few rough copies which I could get through shutterfly since I had loaded them there (yay). I'm back in the market for a digital slr I guess not sure what kind... I loved my Nikkon however I've heard a lot of things both ways about the cameras and there were definitely some issues I had with the Nikkon so I may go Canon this time if nothing else I'd be able to get some of the lenses cheaper...

I wish I could say I was happier or at least less depressed/lonely than when I last left here but I think I just seem to hover in between slightly happier than ambivalent to mildly depressed. I'm more social but that hasn't really changed my overall well being. I've been spending a lot of time meditating on the origins of these feelings lately but to no avail.

I'm still teaching ballroom and still loving it... it makes my personal/social life pretty much non-existent but I can live with that for now. I'm getting ready for a couple of competitions over the next couple of months and if I can manage to get a camera in the mean time I'll be looking forward to taking LOTS and LOTS of photos for you all to see... maybe this time I'll be a little less lazy with what I upload. No matter what happens as soon as I get a camera I'm looking forward to using the SHIT out of it.

Anyways I've got practice in the morning so I'm going to have to leave it here... maybe time to revive my haikus...

a gentle embrace
floating dreams in soft focus
two entwined sweetly

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